Rant, Rave & Relish

Bjurrrrmaaaannn

ME: Bjurman.  Bjurrmaaannnn.  I’m going to name my son that.

LP: That’s the rapist.

ME: …Oh…never mind.

The last five months and how I’m so much happier.

The other day I was talking to my sister at work (yes, for 6 hours a week I get to work with my sister.  How awesome is that?!?) about how awesome I am and what not, and she referenced one of my favorite quotes that I often use to describe the way I feel about myself.  It’s from the movie Working Girl, yes that fabulous 80’s movie.  

Tess McGill: What if he doesn’t?… pop the question? 

Katherine Parker: I really don’t think that’s a variable. We’re in the same city now, I’ve indicated that I’m receptive to an offer, I’ve cleared the month of June… and I am, after all, me

“I am, after all, me.”  Some might say I’m overly confident, I wouldn’t, but others might.  I just know the reality of my attractiveness.  Five months ago I didn’t, or at least I forgot my worth.  Five months ago I was living in constant fear that the man that I loved would stop loving me and that my world would fall apart.  Well, the first one may have happened, but my world didn’t fall apart.  It was actually the best thing that could have ever happened to me.  I felt like this huge weight had been lifted off me and I started seeing things as they were, instead of how I thought they were from behind my lovey relationship veil.  

I was in pain and the most alone I’ve ever been.  I realized I was being manipulated. It was the classic “treat a girl like shit so she won’t leave you” scenario.  I was thinking and acting in ways that were not me and being told I was crazy and needed to be medicated, as well as having thoughts of suicide, didn’t help.  I felt out of control and blamed every other aspect in my life as culprits.  Until the day I went with my mom to pack up all my things.  

Yes, there were tears.

Of course there were hurt feelings, I had built a life with this man.

But underneath all that there was happiness, and I realized the thing that was making me so miserable, was him.

Some people might think I’ve wasted the past year and a half years of my life, but that’s not the case.  I don’t regret anything.  If he had broken up with me earlier in the relationship I would have been devastated and I wouldn’t have learned as much.  I now know what I do and do not want in a relationship, the warning signs of one that I shouldn’t continue with, that I deserve the best and shouldn’t settle for less.

Someone that actually loves me.

Wants to spend time with me.

Makes me feel special.

Treats me with respect.

And finally, someone who makes me happy.

And for right now, especially after spending an amazing week in Vegas, I’m content with the casualness of my romantic life.  Not being in a relationship is all I want right now.  Because being single, can be fun.  ;D

Nail Party

The other night I decided to do everyone’s nails, some were much better than others.  But you can judge for yourself.

Neutral base coat with teal ombre glitter.

Purple ombre glitter.

Pretty pink cupcakes!  Yum!

Close up.  So fun and definitely my favorite!  :D

I Never Been So Proud To Be Italian.

I loved this Superbowl Ad.  Not only are the new Fiats sexy, fun to drive bitches, but now with this commercial I love them even more.  Plus now I’ve decided the only thing that can make me hotter is if I learn Italian.

 

Also, Dolce and Gabbana couldn’t have picked a more beautiful woman to be their new face for makeup.  

Men who don’t think she’s ridiculously hot probably aren’t real men.

King Tut Treasure Visits Seattle

Geek vs. Hipster

I think I lie on the geek side.

Oh my gosh this is funny!!

Fabulous Swedish Apartment

So as I was searching online, planning my urban garden (I’m wicked excited!), I came across this awesome site.  As I was going through it I found this post about a beautiful Swedish apartment.  Check it out, it’s super adorable.  And check out the other posts, this site is FABULOUS!

Awesome Tattoos.